I have fibro fog really badly. It feels like I am kind of drunk or stoned. Time has no meaning any more. If I did it this morning, or ten years ago, the time line gets all mixed up and all the memories seem years old. Also, things just don't seem to effect me as much any more. So....
When your wife kicks you out unexpectedly just cos she wants to be on her own, the upset and depression wears off after a couple of days, cos it feels like it all happened years ago.
When you have to move 3500 kilometers from your ten year old son and he only flies over for the school holidays, the time in between visits flies by and it only feels like he just left, even if ten weeks have gone by. Also, the 3500 km drive goes by in a complete blur!
When you have to work in a shitty bread factory slicing up to 5000 loaves of bread an hour, put them into bags with tags and then make sure they get into crates, a ten hour shift feels like no time at all. (you do have to watch out for sharp slicer blades and stuff though)
When you only get paid $450 a fortnight and you have to pay out $350 in bills, all the time that you have to sit in your room at your Mother's house (cos you can't afford to live anywhere else) avoiding her doesn't matter, cos it flies by and you don't remember it anyway. The fact the you only have $50 a week for everything including petrol doesn't really matter any more either.
(For a more serious post on fibro fog click here)
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